Wishing for the Past

I lay in bed pondering over the past few months
And I ask my self the question why?
Why did i do what i did, why couldn't i see?
What, in my life, was more important
That i didn't realize what i was getting into?
I don't think i understood the whole situation
I musn't have seen the truth
Because the place i am now
I don't prefer and I can't help but wish
For better days that are gone.
I think of the current events that are happening
And realize I just can't do this alone
I wonder how the family is doing and my friends
and long so much to go home.
I think of the many things i was taught
And realize, maybe my parents were right afterall
Oh why didn't i listen and learn from their mistakes?
It could have saved me from this situation
And would have led me more straight.
I wish there was a way to bring back the past
But i know that's impossible
Even a few days so i could have chose a better path
Than the one I am on now.
I love my family so much
And hope and pray for their saftey
I know with your help guiding them
They can't go wrong. They can be worthy
For the work you've given them to do.
Oh God, please help the youth that are there
Help them to stand strong
Because i know if you are with them
They can't make the same mistakes I did
And it will save them from this life.